It is our 3rd day on trail and we are enjoying it. Hiked 16+ miles today! I have 3 videos to post when I get home next Wednesday.
Just recorded today’s video diary. A teaser: God’s creation is beautiful. Also, should I be more Catholic in how I greet others?
A blessed 14th Tuesday in Ordinary Time. I’m Deacon Ken Crawford and this is my 7th video as a newly ordained deacon. God bless you to you all this morning and God bless you to your families.
Today I want to talk a little bit about spiritual direction, something I had to engage in during the formation process, with specific spiritual direction with a spiritual director. I started out with somebody who was a dear friend and priest but not particularly trained in spiritual direction. It was an enjoyable experience but later learned when I went to someone who was well trained in spiritual direction that actually it was not good spiritual direction.
I think there is a great need in our world for spiritual direction. It is so difficult to see in ourselves certain patterns. It’s the same reason we need a psychologist in certain cases. But unlike a psychologist who really is trying to deal with negative situations and correcting them, spiritual direction can hopefully be something in the positive direction. We can look at our lives and our spirituality and our relationship with God and finding ways to grow to closer to Him.
It has changed my life to have good spiritual direction. Fr. Dave has done a wonderful job of guiding me, not telling me what to do, but letting God tell me what to do and helping me listen to God better. There was one key moment where I said something and he told me, “Do you think that came from Christ?” And I had to reflect and say “No, I don’t think it did.” It was not something that would have occurred to me without the benefit of spiritual direction.
The difficult part is it is difficult to get a spiritual director. I was able to get one because I was in formation and I have been able to latch on to him and stick with him as a newly ordained deacon, but it is very difficult to find a spiritual director. But I encourage you to try. It’s a difficult thing. It’s worth the effort. It’s not something you only need when you’re in trouble or struggling spiritually. If anything it is at its best when you are not, when you are trying to grow and deepen your spirituality. So go out and find one. Find someone who’s well trained. A clergyman is awesome but it doesn’t need to be. Lay people can do this job wonderfully. Just find someone who’s a good trained spiritual director. I personally I like an Ignatian model but there are other models that are worth investigating as well.
So that’s my topic for today, but I do have one more thing to discuss. I’m going on a backpacking trip and then a trip to my family cabin, starting tomorrow. So I won’t be posting videos but I will be recording videos from the trail. So what you’re going to see is for about the week, you’ll see some short text posts that will say they are from an InReach device (because that’s my satellite device that I can communicate with from on the trail) to the blog portion. But no podcasts and no video diary.
But I will be recording the video diary every day so when I get home I will do my best to post all of those within a couple days of returning, as well as returning to the normal daily format from my home office. So it’s going to be a little quieter for about a week. There will be some content hopefully posted just in text format. But a lot of content coming in about a week, because it’s all going to be queued up waiting on my phone where I’ll be recording on a daily basis. So, look forward to those.
God bless you all. God bless you in all that you try to do for God’s sake, for the Church’s sake. God bless your families. I ask for your prayers as I embark on this backpacking trip with my sons. We’re going to do about 60 miles in 4 to 5 days, so a lot of hiking in front of us. I ask for your prayers for the safe travel of my family because they will be meeting us at the cabin. And God willing (I won’t really see you tomorrow, but I’ll be posting tomorrow) and I’ll see you in about a week.
A blessed 14th Monday in Ordinary time to you and your family. And also a blessed memorial of the Japanese Martyrs include St. Augustine Zhao Rong.
Today I’m going to talk about my first Mass assisting by myself. Last week’s Mass we had a special feast with both priests and all 3 new deacons. This Sunday it was just me and (by the way) the newly ordained priest who was just assigned to our parish. So it was kinda the new squad just up from “triple A” and now playing in the “majors. He has been ordained for a month so he’s a bit more veteran that I, but we’re both still pretty fresh.
A couple of mistakes right off the bat…
I was worried about this from the beginning, but the sleeves on our dalmatics and albs are so big and bulky. Particularly as men we’re not used to clothing with extra parts on it. So, sure enough, in the sacristy, my arm catches a ciborium full of hosts and sends them flying on the floor. They had to be thrown away. Thank God they were not consecrated so they could be thrown away as opposed to have to bury or consume them. So Mass hadn’t even started yet and I’m already blundering away.
My 2nd big mistake was, and it was kinda something I had heard what they had done with past deacons and hadn’t realized there had been a change… it used to be that the main chalice that the priest used that was they lone chalice filled by the deacon, was used for the entire congregation after it was used on the altar. There had been complaints that the deacons weren’t filling it all the way and so there wasn’t enough (precious) blood for the congregation from that chalice.
Well, apparently that had changed and now just the priest and deacon are taking from the celebrants chalice. All the additional chalices that have always been there are the ones used for the congregation. In any case, I took all of the wine and poured it in its entirety into this chalice not realizing that it was going to be for me and father. So he just took a little. Then because of a much smaller mistake on my part I ended up taking from another chalice and so we had this nearly full, I mean 3/4ths to the top, chalice of precious blood.
Then I kinda panicked (not as far as the congregation saw) because I didn’t know what to do, so I ended up having someone take it down to the congregation. Then it wasn’t brought back (to the altar) because of the way we do things at our parish they are cleaned afterwards in the sacristy, so the celebrants chalice didn’t make it back onto the altar because that one is usually cleaned (by the priest on the altar)… Oy!
There’s all these little details!
And it can’t be part of the training because it is specific to each parish. And then dominoes fall if you don’t get it right.
But I think I did learn, or I had learned in the past and it helped yesterday, that I knew to just roll with the punches. Take it peacefully. Not worry too much about it. Just make sure that perhaps after the fact the right things were done to make sure the chalice was properly purified and all of those sorts of things. Thus 99% of the congregation had no idea what was going on. It was just the few Eucharistic ministers, the priest and myself and our liturgy coordinator who were in the know.
Then afterwards we talked it over, we understood that in the future I just need to put enough wine in there for father and I. So these are all the little details that make… I don’t even think this is a new deacon thing, this is kinda a new to a parish or with a new priest kind of problem that of course when you’re serving as a new deacon is going to be the case. So I learned that one the hard way.
The other pieces, I could already feel it’s week 2, I’m remembering my lines better. I’m more comfortable. I know what to do. Even though I was doing all the parts of the Mass that the deacon does, unlike the prior week where it was spread out (between us 3 new deacons), I could just feel myself slowly getting more comfortable with that. I can imagine 3, 4, or 5 weeks from now, so much of this is going to be… 2nd nature is too strong… but easy to remember and not something I get stressed about. I think you just have to be patient with yourself and let it develop. See how it goes and not worry too much.
Again, love to keep these short. Tomorrow I’ll be talking about my spiritual director because my meeting with him is today. But I want to say:
God bless you! To all of you who made it to Mass yesterday I hope it was a blessed experience. Even with the little debacles it was a blessed experience for me. I will pray for you and for your families. Pray for me and my ministry. And God willing, I’ll see you tomorrow.
(Posting note: This was recorded on Saturday 7/7/18 but I didn’t find time to edit, transcribe and post until this morning, Monday 7/9/18)
A blessed 13th Saturday in Ordinary Time to you and your family. I’m Deacon Ken Crawford and this is my 5th video as a newly ordained deacon. I was ordained 1 week ago today, on Saturday June 30th.
Apologies for missing yesterday. I went on a hike with my sons. We went to Mt. Diablo, just outside the Bay Area here in California. There was just no way I was going to squeeze it in. I’m making it up with an occasional Saturday post and I hope you enjoy want I’m about to say.
On tap for today is that Thursday was my daughter’s birthday, and since I’m kinda on this new blessings kick (and sure enough in here (the Book of Blessings) is the Order of Blessings on the Occasion of a Birthday)… and so I asked my daughter if she would like me to do it and she suggested that we do it at the party later in the afternoon. I was a little nervous about that. It was not a Catholic crowd. It was friends from her public school. Would that be too much imposing our faith on them? But I decided, “that’s what she wants, that’s what we’re going to do.”
I was SO glad that I did! The world is hungering for Christ. They really want Christ. They they really want the witness of Christ. We’re far too afraid to share that. We’re not imposing when we share our faith. I guess you could argue it is closer to imposing when we are talking politics and those sorts of things because we’re challenging them on their beliefs. But when we are just carrying out our faith, that is in no way imposing. That was so obvious at the party.
I sat her down. I started the blessing. I went through a brief reading as the rite calls for. I did the prayers associated to it. I did skip the litany and a couple of things that would have made it more than a couple of minutes, but it was a full 2 to 3 minutes that I did. Everyone was awed by that, to see a Father took the time to bless his daughter on her birthday… and I don’t think most of them knew I was newly ordained. It wasn’t a topic of conversation.
So we really should do more of that. For those of you who aren’t ordained, because the Book of Blessings is mostly (it does have some adjustments for lay people doing these blessings) oriented for clergy. There’s also a 2nd book that I’ve had for a while now, the Catholic Household Blessings and Prayers, that is specifically designed for lay people. If you’re interested in perhaps doing more blessings and liturgical like prayers in your house, you might want to consider this one.
That’s my topic for this morning, mostly about the idea of being willing to be public with our faith; being willing to share our faith and love, but mostly in a way where we are giving our blessings to the world, not challenging people on their faith. Obviously there is a time for that. I’m a leader in RCIA, I know there’s a time to say, ‘This is what is true’ and all of that, but we need to be more discerning as to when to do that. Not much discernment is needed when we share our love, praise and blessings of God. People, everyone except the hardened atheists who know how much it hurts their cause for us to have our love for God in the world, except for that small group of people who generally speaking you don’t run into except online… most people are tickled pink to see people carrying out their faith. So let’s do it. Let’s do more of it. I think I’m personally going to do more of it. I think as a deacon I’m more obligated to be Christ’s feet and voice in the world. We all are, obviously, but I have a special obligation in a certain fashion to be willing to bless, to share the faith, to represent the Church in a somewhat formal sense, in the world. But doing that doesn’t mean being overly rigid about that.
In any case, I always want to keep these short. That’s my topic for this morning. God bless you all for watching. God bless you in your daily lives. Get out there and do things with your family. It was a joyous thing yesterday to be out on the trail with my sons. I encourage you to do the same. God is so prevalent in nature. His overwhelming love in the details of this creation he made, just gets to me every time. So get out there and do it, share the joy and love of your family in God’s creation. Share that love with each other. God bless you all. I will pray for you all. I will pray for your families. I ask for your prayers for my ministry in return.
And God willing, I’ll see you tomorrow.
A blessed 13th Thursday in Ordinary Time to you and your family. I’m Deacon Ken Crawford and this is my 4th video as a newly ordained deacon. Today my topic is going to be about the Ordo. I had a little revelation this morning. For those of you who don’t know, as deacons we are obliged to pray Morning and Evening Prayer every day. That comes from our Liturgy of the Hours book. It’s a little bit of a complicated book. There are different sections. There’s the Psalter. There’s the Common of Saints. You have to use you ribbons to know which section you are going to be praying from. To figure out those things we have this book (the Ordo), that’s not just for that, (it also tells priests what prayers to use at Mass and all those sorts of things) and it tells you, what is today.
So if we were to open this guy up and look at July, 5th, which today is, we would find that actually today is the optionl memorial of St. Anthony Zaccaria or St. Elizabeth of Portugal. Now Ordo’s are actually very specific. This one here is for the Archdiocese of San Francisco. And while there is lots of commonality between the Ordo for this region and other regions within the country they do vary slightly and then of course as you move to other countries they change even more.
What was on my mind today and why I decided it would be the topic of today, was I said “optional” memorial. There are different levels of feasts. There’s everything from a Solemnity to a major Feast, to a mandatory Memorial to an optional Memorial. Because the Liturgy of the Hours is somewhat complicated and more complicated when you have a higher level feast; there’s more ribbons you have to use and more sections you have to reference, there’s a great temptation on optional Memorials to just do the regular prayers. On a weekday during Ordinary Time, only requires one ribbon. I always use the gold ribbon for the Psalter which is the center-piece of the Liturgy of the Hours. Thus it is very tempting to want to do that.
And I thought to myself today, is that really the right mindset? Think of who someone has to have been in history as a saint. Not all saints get on the general calendar. There are probably approximately 100 or 150 of them like that through the whole year [point of clarification: that’s the number that are in the Ordo or general calendar]. It seem very unending. That’s something like 1 out of every 3 days or something like that. But think about that…
150 most holy people in the history of the Church.
How could we possibly say, “Oh, it’s optional, let’s not worry about them.” So I think I’m going to change a bit the way I do my morning and evening prayer. I’m going to do the optional memorials from now on. I didn’t this morning as I was praying my Morning Prayers or Lauds as it is sometimes called. However, this evening when I get to Vespers, I’m going to use the prayers associated to St. Elizabeth of Portugal. How could we not? How could we not honor those people?
Yes, there are lots of them, but that’s the beauty of our faith. There are thousands upon thousands. We should never let the quantity of them turn our hearts away from their holiness.
That’s my thought for this morning. A little bit of a learning for those of you who don’t know much about the Liturgy of the Hours and the Ordo. You will often see this in the sacristy and priests use it to know what they need to do for today’s Mass. And the of course Liturgy of the Hours, every clergy person is expected to pray these. Priests and bishops, they have 5 hours a day, or 5 times a day that they have to pray. They have to pray the Office of Readings, Morning Prayer, Mid-day Prayer, Evening Prayer and Night Prayer. And Deacons have to do the Morning and Evening Prayers. Maybe someday in the future I’ll go over more of the details of it.
But wanting to keep these short I’m just going to go with that today. Thank you all for your prayers for my grandmother. She seems to be getting better. Thank you for your prayers for me. I’m blessed to have this ministry. And I promise to pray for you, your families. And God willing, I’ll see you tomorrow.
A blessed 13th Wednesday in Ordinary time to you and your family. I’m Deacon Ken Crawford and this is my 3rd video as a newly ordained deacon. I was ordained 4 days ago on Saturday June 30th at the Cathedral of the Blessed Sacrament in Sacramento, CA. I encourage you to watch the first video in particular talking about my journey and my ordination and then also yesterday’s video.
Yesterday I found myself at the hospital for the 1st time as a deacon. It turns out my grandmother had a somewhat minor heart attack and was taken to the hospital. So I found myself at the hospital. One of the things we did during formation was we did a number of different ministries that are common for deacons to do and so a couple of years ago we had done a year of visiting the sick, bringing communion to the sick and generally being supportive. That was a very good ministry for me. I was someone who was always terrified of the hospital. I had been lucky enough that not a lot of my family members had been sick. I didn’t have a lot of exposure there. To actually get into the hospital; to get in to visiting with people was a great blessing and a period of great growth. Thus actually yesterday I felt very comfortable at the hospital, which was a new thing for me, in the scope of my life anyway.
I ask you all to pray for my grandmother. Her name is Dottie. She herself is a fallen away Catholic. She was raised Catholic; raised her children Catholic; but later in life turned away from the Church. Pray for her health. Pray for her faith. Pray that God’s love and wisdom penetrate her heart.
In any case, when you’re on your way to the hospital, the first thing you do is you grab your ‘Book of Blessings’. My brother who went with me (he’s out visiting from Massachusetts) was laughing that it was in the car when I went and picked him up. (I said) “No, you’ve got to bring the tools of the trade with you.” So, I brought it with me. My very ornery grandmother, when I finally got to the right place to ask her if she would like a blessing… I figured what a great chance to give my first hospital blessing as a deacon, but she tells me, “I’m not sick!” and says that she doesn’t want a blessing. That felt “great”, to have my first attempt at a (hospital) blessing shunned by grandma.
What I did actually is I let the conversation go and then I privately said the prayers of the blessing for her. I didn’t want to make her uncomfortable by forcing it (and I probably could have force the matter and got her to accept it). But clearly she wasn’t all that receptive but I still wanted God’s blessings for her, so I chose to say the prayers privately and very quietly make the sign of the cross in a way that was somewhat subtle. I think God’s blessing would be with her even if she’s not really appreciating what she’s saying no to.
That was the experience for yesterday. Going to the hospital I think is going to be a lot like that throughout ministry. It’s not going to be something (unless I get assigned to a ministry like that) where I’m going to know yesterday that I’m going to be there today. You’re going to be there on short notice, that there’s a parishioner or family member, but as a deacon I’ll be called to be there as often as I can. I of course have to respect the needs of my family and providing for them and all those sorts of things.
It felt very much ‘getting into the ministry’ to go. Obviously I would have gone anyway. It’s my grandmother, I’m going to go visit her in the hospital. There was something about that, that was just a step into ministry. So that was yesterday’s little blessing, a surprise, but God’s grace is in so many things.
Again, I really want to keep these short. I was actually unhappy with how long the first two were. So I’m just going to give you that little anecdote today. I’m going to say:
God bless you to all of you. God bless you to your families. Have a wonderful 4th of July. May our country find it’s way back to the faith that founded it in the sense that we have laws that are just and fair, respect all people, care for all people, love the world, do our best to be a beacon of hope and truth for the world in a way that wants to them to share with us in our joys. So let’s pray for our country this 4th of July. Let’s pray for each other. Pray for my grandmother. Pray for me and my ministry. And I promise I will pray for all of you who are watching and you families.
And God willing, I’ll see you tomorrow.
A blessed feast of St. Thomas the Apostle. I’m Deacon Ken Crawford and this is my 2nd day of my video journal as a newly ordained deacon. I was ordained 3 days ago on Saturday, June 30th. I encourage you to go look at yesterday’s video, my first day, talking about the ordination itself. Today as promised I’m going to talk about my first time serving back at my home parish as a deacon and some the experiences around that.
One of the things that was very unique about our parish, was that we had 3 people in formation. 3 of us were ordained: Myself, Larry and Kevin. Which is very, very rare. In fact, this was already a big class, at 27 deacons. That’s out of 100 or parishes. Thus most parishes have none, and most of the candidates were the lone candidate from that parish. I think there were 2 or 3 that had 2, but we were the only one with 3 and the only one I’ve ever heard of with 3. It was a great joy because we went through the process together. One of the consequences of that unfortunately was the bishop felt the need to assign one of us elsewhere to kinda spread the riches.
It is important to know that deacons do not serve a parish. They serve the bishop and the diocese. We don’t give fidelity to our pastor. We give fidelity to the bishop. So when he says, you need to be assigned somewhere else, we’re obliged to go. Kevin with all humility has done exactly that and he has been a great example to us of how to do that. It was always the joke that I was going to be the one to be assigned elsewhere. I have some history at a parish, kinda the next parish over. I was a parishioner there for many years. But apparently the joke is not on me and Kevin had to take on that; a little bit more difficult role. It’s much more comfortable to be at your home parish.
But for this one first mass, all 3 of us got to serve at our home parish. Let me tell you, it was one busy altar. We had the pastor, the parochial vicar, because this was a big celebration, the 3 of us, 8 altar servers, which was made up of our kids. That was a lot of people on the altar. The sign of peace was a mass of chaos.
We also had to split up the roles. I did all the little parts. I did the penitential rite pieces. I did the prayers of the faithful and a couple other things like ‘go in peace’ and what have you. Kevin did the homily and the proclaiming of the gospel. Larry did the Eucharistic stuff around preparing the altar and pouring the wine and all of those pieces. That was nice because we only had to focus on our little part.
For me, I wrote down all my lines on a card so I would be 100% confident. Because you know it’s so different to actually do it than to hear it in the pew. From the pew you say, “Oh yeah, I know this inside and out; I’ve heard it for years and years and years”. It’s very different when you need to remember “contrite of heart” or “contrite in spirit” or what’s the exact word? Thus I wanted to have a note card. Then, as things go, the note card was in the wrong pocket. My alb has one ‘pocket’ that goes through to my pants pocket and the other that is a seamed in pocket in the actual alb itself. I had put this (the note card) in my pant pocket in the side that didn’t actually go through. So I couldn’t even get to my note card and I had to do it all from memory. It was a little bit of a comedy of errors. I messed up little words here and there.
One of the things I was reminded of in that is that I think one of the graces of ordination is being able to make mistakes on the altar and not make it look like a catastrophe. Priest and deacons are very good at that. Mistakes happen all the time and they just act as if it is normal. They just correct and move on. That is something that I’m going to have to work on. I don’t know that I did poorly in that regard, but I definitely didn’t have the grace of movement, for sure at the end, I was very slow on the last line, “The Mass is ended, go in peace.” I was just not ready for that being my line. We didn’t have our microphones on like we usually do because there were so many of us on the altar. Thus I had to then run over to the ambo, proclaim that, and then run back. That probably wasn’t the most graceful moment as well. But I think over time it is something I will just need to grow into. You do this week after week after week and becomes very comfortable and natural. I should be kind with myself and know it takes time to get those things right.
I want to say a special thank you to our pastor, Fr. George who has been so supportive throughout the who process. He bought us a couple albs. He bought us a dalmatic. He paid for our ordination dalmatic that we needed down at the diocese, at the cathedral. He’s been wonderful throughout the whole process. Every deacon candidate would be blessed to have someone like him as their pastor. A big thank you to him. That’s been so important to have a pastor who has supported us throughout the formation. He also told us to take it slow at first; don’t jump right in; be patient with ourselves; learn the role as we go.
As I said I want to keep these short so I’m going to wrap it up there. Tomorrow I’m going to talk a little bit more about a couple of aspects of formation. We’ll be able go through a number of things in the days and weeks to come.
A blessed Feast of St. Thomas the Apostle to you. May God bless you in all that you do. Know that God’s love is always with you and He cares for you deeply. I will pray for you. I will pray for your families. Thank you for tuning in. A special welcome to those who came from ‘The Deacon Bench’, from Deacon Greg’s blog. Welcome and I hope you enjoy these. And God willing, I’ll see you all tomorrow.
A blessed 13th Monday in Ordinary Time to you and your family. My name is Deacon Ken Crawford and I’m a newly ordained deacon in the Diocese of Sacramento. I was ordained 2 days ago at the Cathedral of the Blessed Sacrament on June 30th, 2018. About a month before my ordination I decided that I really wanted to well document my first year as a deacon. Like the first year of marriage I’m sure there is going to be so much that happens that is going to be formative in my ministry and I though it would be really good, both for myself and perhaps for others, to share that with all of you. And so we begin that journey today.
My plan is to post every weekday, perhaps an occasional Saturday, for a full year, and then we’ll see where it goes after that. Today my intent is to post about the ordination itself. Then in the days and weeks to come, I’ll post more about myself, my journey that got me here and then other things that occur.
As we were about to be ordained and were standing outside on the steps of the cathedral, waiting to process in, one of my brother candidates said, “Gentlemen, we’re at the top of the rollerc oaster now!” And it was so apt. There was something about it that just resonated, not only then but in the moments to come. We had worked so hard to reach this moment. But at the same time, we knew we were just starting on this journey. We had butterflies and unease and we weren’t sure where this was all headed, and walking down the isle into the church as part of the procession was like that first drop of the roller coaster. It was both exciting and exhilarating and a bit terrifying. You didn’t know what was going to come. You didn’t know if you were going to be able to take it. But you were excited nevertheless. I think that’s how we all felt on Saturday.
One moment that really stood out to me was when I promised my fidelity to the bishop. I had already done that in writing, they have us sign an form. It was done in either March or May, somewhere in the spring. So I didn’t think that doing it again in person would be that big of a deal. But just like my own wedding, where I promised to love and care for my wife for the rest of our lives, the same was true of actually standing before the bishop and promising my fidelity. For the 2nd time in my live I stood in a church and promised to serve someone for the rest of my life. That was a meaningful and important moment for me. It really affected me deeply.
A 2nd more humorous thing is I didn’t realize how hard it was to shove the Holy Spirit into someone. When Bishop Soto laid his hands on me I expected something gentle. Yet he was really shoving down. At first I thought, am I kneeling to tall? Does he want me to be lower? …all the other guys said the same thing, that he pushed really hard. So one can only assume that the Holy Spirit doesn’t go in easy and you really have to push. … that was I humorous moment, but I don’t know, maybe there’s something there.
And finally, I was reminded of something that perhaps I had a little bit forgotten. You should never assume how God’s grace will feel. You know I’ve had those moments in my life where God’s love just washed over me and it was filling and emotional and tears and all of that. I was expecting that sort of grace filled moment. But that didn’t really come for me. There were moments of strong humility, but nothing of that variety. Yet at the same time I left the ceremony a different man. As an analogy it was like I was the Eucharist. I wasn’t bread anymore. Yet I still looked like me. I still felt like me. Perhaps I still tasted like me as well (I don’t often taste myself). But inside I was transformed. The church word they would use is that I was ontologically changed; that my very being was different. That was just so true; it was profoundly true. I could see it in everything. The moment it was most clear to me was when I got home that evening, (because there was the ordination and then there was my reception and then I stopped by a friend’s reception) and I was exhausted. It was the kind of exhaustion that in the past when I got home in the past I wouldn’t do my evening prayers. During formation they ask you to do and after you are ordained you are obliged to do, morning and evening prayers.
Instead I was transformed. It was my nature now to pray for the Church. There was no hesitation; no thought that I’ll not do it. I could just feel how I had been transformed into a person who’s purpose was to serve the Church and that included praying for the Church. Thus I just sat down and prayed my evening office without any though of ‘I’m exhausted’ or anything like that. It’s been true both of the last two evening (as yesterday was also a very busy and chaotic day). I have been transformed and it is overwhelming. I’m so very thankful for the gifts of God that have brought me here, that transformed me during the ordination. I really hope that I can share more of that in the weeks to come.
I’d like to keep these relatively short so I’m going to end it right there. Tomorrow I’ll talk about (which is still yesterday, so I’ll still be 2 days behind) but my first Mass serving as a deacon serving at my home parish.
God bless you all. May God’s blessings be with you in ALL that you do. And God willing, I’ll see you tomorrow.
More to be posted soon…